Adios 2009!!

It’s really really long since I blog. Been busy with my assignment and also because there is one kind feeling within me that asking me not to blog so much though I have lotsa things to blog about. =P So now here I am now..

Yea, there is this one thing that I wanna stress about. It’s the movie ‘Avatar’.. It was superb nice… Those animation, graphic and storyline… WOW… Meaningful storyline.. Even the Pastor in the church also can relate his sermon to the movie. Haha. It was definitely worth it for me to go for a late midnight movie on that day… Didn’t regret going for it.

The moral assignment really almost take my life away.. Doing on the topic on ‘Suicide’ almost made me wanna suicide as well. Been cracking my head to do it. It caused me so much of my hair.. arghhhh…. Need to visit Yun Nam Haircare… hahaha.. Finally no more assignment now.. Just left with presentation and final exam nie.

This was the 1st year that I celebrate Christmas in East Malaysia.. And also the 1st year I joined for Christmas caroling. It was so embarrassed at the beginning caused we were basically performing in the town.. From shopping complex to shopping complex. Haha. But it was a nice experience to be remembered. Christmas Eve was boring but on the real day of Christmas, I went out almost the whole day. Hees. Went to The Spring (Shopping Mall opposite my uni) to see fireworks and for countdown as well. I saw Sarawak BB.. It reminds me of those days when I was serving back in company.. Community Service.. There was this urge in me to go and say Hi to them, but eventually I didn’t do it.. Too paiseh.. haha.. Straight after the firework, I went back.

The next day was a nice experience for celebrating Christmas in Sarawak. Went to church in the morning.. Then Christmas lunch. Didn’t managed to get any prize.. Not my day after all. =] Got a chance to visit Zac’s house.. His house was so cool.. It was more like those kampong style house near to the city. Or it should be said, in the city. I can’t believe that he rear pigs. Haha.. His cousin was super cute and hyperactive. Chubby.. Created all the laughter in the house. Then at night pulak, went to Natalie’s house. I can’t believe that she actually invited me to go because I wasn’t really close to her. Blessing!! Haha. Thanks for the invite, Natalie. The Shepherd’s pie that her mum made was super delicious.. The two later mashed potatoes with minced meats in between it really an eye opening experience.. oppsss. Should say, taste buds opening experience. Haha. Managed to eat turkey for Christmas this year. Wakaka. And something really different this year, I drank alcohol.. =P shhhhhh.. eh, I’m not underage d leh. No need to be so secretive. XD Drank XO (40%), red wine, white wine…. The XO was so so so so hard to drink. It haven’t even enters my mouth, I already can smell the bitterness of it. George’s whole body was so red after he drank those alcohols. Haha.

New Year is just around the corner… This year seems so fast for me. It feels like I didn’t really do much thing this year. No matter how short this year is, all those times that I had went through will always be memories that shall never be forgotten. There were only three main things that happened to me this year. Working in church, Form6 and also here, in Sarawak.

I still remember I went to work in church in the beginning of the year with Ph’ng. Those experiences were really great. How well did we work together, teasing each other, driving out for lunch, cracking out brain for BB activities, burning our skin under the hot and mighty sun, playing the PA system in church, folding bulletins, etc etc. wow.. Those experiences were really unforgettable. I started to miss Ph’ng.. It’s been a while since I saw him. The little chipmunk that is so cute.. When you look at his face, you will definitely know that he is harmless. haha

Form6 was really a hell and heaven experience. At the beginning, I really thought that I will end up there and finish up my STPM there.. I still remember the 1st day I step into 6RB. The environment was so tensed. Everyone looks so foreign to me except for those of my ex-classmates. When I enter in with Kinwai, there wasn’t any place left in the middle so we were force to sit at the side. Surrounded by 4 foreign girls in front and back of us. Jin was beside us. Then eventually, one by one, all left the class.. 1st was Ee Xin, then Kin Wai, Jin and the last one was me.. I really didn’t regret entered form6 although it was just awhile.. The most unforgettable thing at that time, were those new friends that I met there. Sokwai, Bubu, Yiwen, Ben, Yeesan, Kaylynn, and the list goes on.. Those moments that we spent together will only be mere memories for me to be remembered forever.

Stepping my foot in a foreign land was totally a new experience and new journey for me. Kuching, Sarawak. It the 1st time I sit on a plane. I believe that God send me here for a purpose and that’s why I am here now. Another new bunch of friends here. Communication here was really a problem for me. They speak in mostly 2 dialects, mandarin and hokkien, which both are a problem for me. It’s never been easy for me to adapt to the new environment here. It was hard to have a peaceful life here with ‘bullets’ flying everywhere. Been struggling so much. Nevertheless, I will keep on fighting to survive. Since I came here, I had been growing a lot in term of physically, mentally and spiritually.

Friends have been asking me about my New Year resolution but my answer to them was just a simple smile. I never had any New Year resolution. It was because I never try to make any effort to achieve those resolutions that I had made. So I do not find any reason for me to make any New Year resolution. Or maybe I have one. One and the only one, ‘to enjoy while suffer’. As simple as that. LOL

Today is the last day of 2009. And here am I writing the last post for the year of 2009.

Signing off.

Tagged by SokWai

Rules of the game:Once you are tagged,you MUST DO this quiz and tag 16 friends,including the person who tagged you.Copy and paste everything,do it and re-post the title with whatever rank you were given.Ranks are given at the bottom of this note.If you have done something in this school which is indicated by the sentence, mark the [ ] on the left side of the thing you have done with a x.Let the game begin.

Let the game begin.

Level 1:

[x]Sleep in class

[x]Talked in class

[x]not seating at your own place in class

[x]Scolded by a teacher

[x]Litter the classroom

[x]Did not do your homework at least 15 times

[ ]Submitted your homework late at least 10 times

[ ]Came late for school at least 10 times

[x]brought/wore home clothes without school's permission

[ ]brought/wore jewellery to school

[x]did not pay attention in class for at least 60% of the time

[ ]cried out "sian" or "wa lao wei" to the teacher

[x]plucked a flower/ killed a plant in school

[x]copied other people's homework in desperation (that I really had no choice !)

[x]played a trick on your classmates/teacher

Total so far: 11

Level 2:
[ ]sent for detention class
[x]late in class
[x]not wearing your school uniform (if you have) properly
[ ]shouted at the top of your voice during lesson time
[ ]scolding vulgarities in class
[ ]spotted hairstyle deemed unacceptable by the school
[x]used a school facility without school's permission
[x]played soccer/basketball or any other sports/games in classroom
[ ]singing loudly during lesson (but NOT THAT loud)
[ ]walking around the class aimlessly during lesson time
[x]did not greet the teacher properly
[x]went to the toilet during lesson time without permission
[ ]played a trick on the teacher during April fools
[ ]used the teacher's table as a rubbish dump
[ ]made yourself a nuisance to the teacher

Total so far: 17

Level 3:
[x]was asked to stay back after school/ break time
[ ]made a fool out of morning assembly
[ ]wasted the school's toilet paper
[x]sabotaged someone
[x]irritated someone

Total so far:20

Level 4:

[x]forged your parent's signature

[x]forged a classmate's signature

[ ]forged a teacher's signature

[ ]made rude remarks to the school cleaners in front of them

[ ]flew a paper aeroplane down from the school from at least the third storey

Total so far:22

Level 5:

[ ]fiddling with your handphone during lesson time

[ ]played with your PSP in school

[x]using school computer to play games without a teacher's permission

[ ]listened to an MP3 player in school

[ ]messed with the teacher's pigeon hole

Total so far:23

Level 6:

[x]vandalising with school property

[x]tried to defame your school in public

[x]used the internet to scold teachers

[ ]fought with someone in school

[ ]shoplifted in school

Total so far:26

Level 7:

[x]cheated in a class test

[x]cheated in a school examination

[ ]cheated for your PSLE/ GCE 'O' or 'A' Level Examination

[x]Lied to your teacher

[x]played truancy for hall assemblies/ specific lessons

Total so far: 30

Level 8:

[ ]took drugs in school

[ ]smoked in school

[x]set fire to something in the school

[x]locked the teacher out of the classroom

[ ]played truancy just after coming to school just to take attendance

Total so far: 32

Level 9:

[ ]refused to pay school fees

[ ]cheated the school money

[x]stole things which belonged to the school

[x]bullied someone in school ( just playing la )

[ ]pranked called your school

Total so far:33

Level 10:

[ ]raised your voice/shouted against a student leader

[ ]raised your voice/shouted against a teacher

[ ]raised your voice/shouted against your discipline master/mistress

[ ]raised your voice/shouted against your vice-principal

[ ]raised your voice/shouted against your principal

Total so far: 33

Level 11:

[ ]brought weapons to the school

[ ]brought real firearms to the school

[ ]brought a real bomb to the school

[ ]fired a real weapon in the school with the motive to frighten/kill

[ ]dressed up as a terrorist to school

Grand total: 33

Ranks:

If you are between 0-15 -------------{I am a good student}

If you are between 16-20------------{I am a good student but with occasional trouble}

If you are between 21-30------------{I am an average student}

If you are between 31-40------------{I am a bad student}

If you are between 41-50------------{I am a very bad student}

If you are between 51-60------------{I should have been caned by the discipline master}

If you are between 61-65------------{I should have been expelled from school}

If you are between 66-75------------{I should have been sent to a reformatory centre}

Answer : {I am a bad student}

I WANNA TAG :

SokWai

BuBu

Cammie

Jamie

KinWai

Kirukato

Partial

Joan

Jill

Kaylynn
Josh

Irene

Marilyn

Joe

Joanne

Eugene

So be it...

There are alot in my mind but yet those words just couldn't be express easily like how I want it to be. God created us with complicated structure compared to other living things. With this complicated structure especially our sophisticated brain, we can think differently. I know that He made us in such a way because He wants us to make a different to others but yet I wish that life could be much more simpler so that I do not need to think so much.

I have been thinking thinking and thinking again.. Everything started to make sense but yet I refused to believe. Problems arose one after another. I'm getting weaker and weaker day by day. I feel like letting it go and let nature takes place. But after all, is it because of me thinking too much and makes everything become so complicated that bring me into this position.

I felt like I had been lied times after times but yet I still hoping that I'm crawling in my dreamland and waiting for the time to wake up. All the promises were again mere lies. I can't blame it on you after all based on the rule of utilitarianism. There is no right or wrong in everything that you do.

Things change, don't they?? We can't stop the world from changing. It's part and parcel of life. It's always me that doesn't want to accept the changes happening all around me. So, I shall throw this word out again that "I don't care". By this way, it at least make me feel a little better. I really hate hurting others so I decided to hurt myself rather to hurt others. "If you want others to love you, first you must let others to hurt you"

I have been getting alot of teaching, life teaching, lately. I feel like uneasy about what I have been doing. I found out that I had not doing much things about it and keep on falling deeper into it. I reflected on myself. i think that the problem lies on myself after all. Now i understand the importance of fellowship. It really does help. I shall lay my burdens onto your shoulder and leave it onto you.

Life is hard.